Tardus Subscripto

Kanye West. Changed my life. For the better.

Listening to Late Registration. Two full cups of Grey Goose. Thoughts flowing.

I can't put a proper sentence together. The same way I can't get my life on track.

But back to the topic at hand. Kanye West. Read what he wrote on his blog recently about creativity, and this guy is on some next level shit. Late Registration was a classic. Graduation was above-par solid album. 808's was groundbreaking, but nothing like Late Registration. Musically, it was beyond ahead of it's time. I'm glad this is who I will be telling my children (if we get to live that long) about. No groupie though. Just giving respects where it's due.

Supposedly, I hear that Madlib is gon' be a producer on the next album which is HUGE. As well as Dj Premier. WHOA.


But disregarding that, I just had the urge to blog about what was going through my mind as I'm analyzing this album. *Diamonds From Sierra Leone starts*

How To Make It In America

Not that bad of a show. I'm thoroughly impressed with the soundtrack it has so far.

We'll see how it progresses.

P.S. That Aloe Blacc - I Need A Dollar is crazy dope. What else do you expect when you got The Expressions & El Michels Affair on the instrumentation? Nothing but greatness.

The Closet

If only this were all mine. I'd be fine.

Roll it up

Things I'd do for these pairs of shoes.

Hiatus

What have I been up to? It's been months since I've posted something. Here's a little run down of what I've been up to.

Music wise, I've been listening to a lot of Little Dragon. Great Sweden band. Check out their music at the MySpace page. I like Forever.

Life wise, I applied to Seneca Newnham campus for General Arts & Science (HOLLA). Hopefully this is a stepping stone, or just a prelude to my future. Just waiting on that acceptance letter.

A reason for my hiatus was catching up on TV Series, like Weeds & Entourage. If you ain't on any of these shows, you should already be googlin' or bingin' 'em. I've watched a couple movies.

Rockers.

Great film with an amazing soundtrack.


Another film I found myself watching was Sin Nombre.

Another good film, I recommend it.

Hope you enjoyed this long post. I'll be back more and be more consistent.

Ink My Whole Body

Thinkin' Of gettin' tatted up. Thinkin' of a Music note. Maybe "Family", or my last name. Maybe the three most important women in my life (Mom & Sisters). I'll keep on posting.

BLACKsummernights

P.S. I just realized all my most recent posts have been about music. Hmph.

REAL.

"And you can try to change but that's just the top layer.
Man, you was who you was 'fore you got here.
Only God can judge me, so I'm gone,
Either love me, or leave me alone."

I'm so young and ignorant

Changes came, and changes changed again. I'm back on the bullshit that I'm used to. Expect the unexpected. Fuck what you heard.

Epiphany

This morning, I woke up
Feeling brand new I jumped up
Feeling my high's, and my low's
In my soul, and my goals
Just to stop smoking, and stop drinking
But I've been thinking - I've got my reasons
Just to get By.

The Death Of Me

Do I have nothing good left to say?
Do I need whiskey to start fueling my complaints?
People love to drink their troubles away.
Sometimes I feel that I’d be better off that way.

‘Cause maybe then I could sleep at night.
I wouldn’t lay awake until the morning light.
This is something that I’ll never control.
My nerves will be the death of me, I know.
I know, I know.

So here’s to Living Life miserable.
And here’s to all the lonely stories that I’ve told.
Maybe drinking wine would validate my sorrow.
Every man needs a muse and mine could be. the bottle.

Maybe then I could sleep at night.
I wouldn’t lie awake until the morning light.
This is something that I’ll never control.
My nerves will be the death of me, I know.

Finally, I could hope for a better day.
No longer holding onto all the things that cloud my mind.
Maybe then the weight of the world wouldn’t seem so heavy.
But then again I’ll probably always feel this way.

At least I know I’ll never sleep at night.
I’ll always lie awake until the morning light.
This is something that I’ll never control.
My nerves will be the death of me.
My nerves will be the death of me.

My nerves will be the death of me, I know.

Real ish

And then she broke into tears
I pressed 7, took the phone from my ears
Sometimes the simplest of things, people need it
But I aint call back in fear of being speechless
What was I to put her at ease with?
I picked a real bad time to be strategic
I think my life’s bad picking up the pieces
Some folk already got their appointment to see Jesus
In this world full of diseases
I’ve learned not to bite my tongue or have seizures
Depression tells me I suck
So I reply ‘I aint here cuz I fell down, Im here cuz I got up’ - Joe Budden

I'm still

Stuck.

On what to do with my life for next school year. "What to do?" is the main question. My issue is finding the answer. Creative Advertising? Not too sure. Fashion Business Industry? Not too sure. So I'm here stuck on my two options. If I choose one, later in the long run I might not even go after the career I was studying for. Teachers didn't intentionally wanted to be teachers. This co-worker went to school for film, now he's with me working part-time. I don't wanna end up like neither of these. I don't want to change careers after I graduate. If I'm gonna go for something, I'm going for IT.


Still stuck.

What If...

I don't live in the past, I'm just on vacation.

M.

"You Never Really Know Anyone."

Not exactly the hot pinup glorified on most blogs, but while watching James Bond: Quantum Of Solace she said these wise words. Although Judy Dench probably just read it out of a script which changed her name to, "M" for a couple months, or however long it takes to make a movie, the words still stick in minds of those who are open to it. I am obviously one of those people. She was referring to her secret agent comrades but I found my self relating.  The reason I believe in this quote is mostly triggered by recent events but I have a point of my own.  I agree with the quote, "you never really know anyone" not because everyone has something to hide or anything. It is the fact that a lot of people don't fully know themselves and what their willing to do.  So how can you really know, if they don't really know themselves.  I wont be all emo and totally say you don't know anyone because there are some pretty solid people out there.  Also because the statment's a tad dramatic, or is it?

-AdrianLame

Writer's Block pt.2

As I look through my boy's Parodi's writers block post, i realize that I am suffering from the same illness, just different symptoms. It's not that I cannot think of anything, Its the exact opposite. I have to much flowing out of my mind, and it's hard to concentrate it into a blog. Im not trying to expose my inner most thoughts to you guys, at least not yet. I'd rather provide snippets of the roots of my thoughts, and I keep thinking in chunks. So until I can organize my mind I am as blocked as my boy Parodi. This won't take long (i hope) cause as you can see it took Parodi about an half an hour to get back on it.

But before I end this post gotta big up my boy Springsteen, you can catch him at his own blog or at The Attic Society  H'UNDASTAN?

-AdrianLame.

Waiting

There's a reason why I'm waiting. There's a reason why I'm still here. We've been on a crappy roller coaster and I'm still sitting by your side. Why? It's probably because everything I do ends up being relative to you.

You still think the same. You want to be with me, but then you don't. I've come to understand that. I've accepted it. They same way you've accepted my flaws and I've accepted yours.

I may be the one to push the wrong buttons, but then again, I'm the same one who is capable of pushing the right ones, and make it fine.

I'm going to wait for [insert second,minute,hour,day,week,month,year here]. Basically I'm going to be here. No matter what it is. As long as you treat me right, and as long as I treat you right.

I've done wrong in the past, I hope we can look through that dirty window and see what's really there.

Please.